Binge Eating Was Hard to Heal, But Worth It

I'm going to be real with you: healing my binge eating and eating disorders has been incredibly difficult.

It has meant I've had to face very painful truths about my childhood and have put a great deal of effort, time and money into discovering what happened to me emotionally.

I have had significant help from others, most especially Jesus and Mary and the Divine Truth teachings, as well as therapists, authors and dear friends. I absolutely have not figured all of this out on my own; I would be nowhere without the assistance of others.

However, it has still taken a lot of effort. It has involved dozens of books, thousands of hours of videos and podcasts, workshops, therapy, and more.

It has at times required prioritizing time spent on healing over time spent with friends, family, going to the gym, fun activities out, social gatherings and entertainment.

It has required sobbing, wailing, raging, screaming, swearing, and shaking. It has meant I've felt emotions that were so intense and overwhelming that I worried I would go crazy or never come out of them.

Facing the truth about what from my childhood created the eating disorders, speaking the truth about the issues in my family, and putting up boundaries about how my family treats me has resulted in most of them, including both of my parents, deciding to cut off all contact with me.

And yet, I must tell you this: I never regret doing any of what I’ve done.

I've healed binge eating and I don't have to put any effort into not doing it. I can have sugary food in the house and forget we even have it, I can wait till I'm hungry and stop when I'm full. I've healed severe depression as well as suicidal feelings. I have some true happiness for the first time in my life.

Certainly, my life is not always happy! There are many issues and struggles. But I am significantly more connected with myself than before, I have close relationships for the first time in my life. I am more productive and effective. I have far more hope than I ever did.

Not once have I looked back, even with all the heartache I've felt and thought, "That wasn't worth it."

It's been worth every hard truth, every rejection, and every tear to heal and come home to myself and to God.

Photo of me by Katie Sue Photography